Estelle Pizer

Scene 6 - the obligatory death scene


Inside this bruised and beaten body

Against this blackened heart

Against my will, against my will

Beats the hand of Hashem*

Who has kept me alive to witness this...

This, this the worst of all my nightmares

Oh Hashem, why do you hate me so?

I cannot bear this burden that you call life

I am old, I am tired

Please let me sleep

Hashem, I beseech thee

Hashem, I beg of thee

Pearl turns to her husband, Schmerl, whom she believed died in the Holocaust


If you only knew what I have been through

But you were always here with me

Here with me

If you only knew the days, the dark lonely nights

When I wish I could have died

Except for the flicker of a chance

That you were somehow, someway, somewhere

Waiting for me too

That you hadn't forgotten

Schmerl my one and only love

Oh hold me closer

I want to remember

I want to be young again with you

Schmerl, remember?

Estelle Pizer 2005

*Hashem is one of the words that the Jews use for God

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